A Journey till The End

When a person starts a journey, a person is yet to end it. Every step, every decision of path. All would contribute to one's journey in life.

An inspiring music allowed me to see through the blue sky today. The song is called "Pure Feeling".
It was an interesting song. Recently I had a lot in my mind. I felt as though I was not in peace. I wasn't relax. I was stressed, frustrated and busy. I never liked these feeling. All I wanted was to be happy and enjoy life. However, today, whilst I was walking out to work, I listened to this song. And I "listened". I looked up to the blue heaven sky, and I thought to myself,

"How many more steps will I reach my journey. Is life just a repetition of an everyday occurance?"

As I was walking up the sloppy hill to my destination, it suddenly struck me....
We are walking up a hill in life, looking at the heaven's and hoping to reach. Similar to life, where we struggle to pursuit an eternal feeling called happiness. Ironically, I felt as I had wings to soar above the heavens as I climbed the hill but came to realize that it was nothing more than a mere illusion in life. The heaven's was in front of us, yet we imagine chasing something that was not reachable. In a matter of fact, it is not our journey to reach the heavens, but rather to experience the beauty of heaven from afar.

As I realize this and once again looked up the majestic blue skies, I see that I didn't need to chase after heaven, heaven was presented right in front of me. The music to my ears amplified that feeling. I felt free from the world. Relax. Unbounded by the law of the universe. I was in heaven.

Although it was only a brief 5 minutes experience. I realize that similarly to heaven, happiness is always in front of us. We don't really need to chase it, it is just there, ready to be experience at any time or day. It made me realize, in order to find happiness, one must first realize that happiness is actually in us. We just got to realize it and not hazed by the fact that happiness comes with a price or return from something else.

I really would like to see the heaven's again one day. Although it was just a blue sky, what I really saw was........

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A message from Life of A Normal Guy: Happiness is in front of us, appreciate and experience it
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Dear God

Dear God,

Saturday, 14th June 2008.

My wife is unhappy today. She lost not only to a badminton game, but also to herself. I feel sad in a way not because we lost a game, but rather because of her losing her confidence. I can honestly say that she plays well. But I really hope that she be patient enough and strive to continue working hard at to accept that losing is the first step to success. I know god that deep inside she is really good, just sometimes have a temper... but please give her the strength to slowly change rather than giving up. I will support her. I will comfort her. But I also want to give her confidence. Confidence not only in others but also in herself. Believing that she can do it. I hope the words of others does not affect her, for words of mouth come and go, and sometimes does not mean anything.

So please give her strength

From the prayers of the man who love her

I believe, do you ?

A story about trust, might sound boring. A story of my life trust might sound meaningless. So I'll tell you a story about something that inspires. And it starts with a man being stranded on an island far far away from civilization.....

Chapter 1 - Realization

A simmer of light came out from the darkness of my sight.

"Where am I ?" I asked myself....

The taste of the salty ocean was around my lips and sipping into my tongue.

"What happened?" I asked myself again.....

As I awoke, I hear the ocean waves of the sea and started to feel the cold ocean water sipping
between my shivering knees. I was lost....

"Had I lost my memory..? " again I asked....

I wandered to the shores of the hot burning sun, and came to realize that I was stranded. Stranded alone on an island surrounded by a vast ocean sea which isolated the island from civilization and outside communication.

I had no where to go. I had no one to turn. I was lost. Lost in the middle of this infinite sea.

Chapter 2 - Loneliness

It has been two week since I've come to this island. No signs of life was apparent here. No animals. No peoples. Just no one......

Everyday I have struggled to find food. I tried to lite a fire. I tried to hunt for fishes. I tried catching birds. I tried everything to survive. But to no avail in these past 2 weeks could I have had a decent cooked meal on the island.

For the past 2 weeks I have been just eating cocunut meat and its milk. That was my only source of food. And it was not many left could I use to consume them. I was running short of food and water. I'm come to a term that I'm going to die here one day of hunger. I was not in control in anything. The only thing I had in control was to live or die.

Chapter 3 - Suicide

Standing on a cliff so high as the empire state building, I had gotten a few shards of branches together to make a rope for me to hang myself and stop my misery on this dreadful island. It was a very high cliff and a long long way down. As I put the rope around my neck, I paused. Thinking was it all worth it. The pain, the agony, the instinct to survive and keep breathing.....

And when all was lost, I looked up at the ocean sunrise, and there it was... the big yolk of life. Unpredictable. Mysterious and yet beautiful. There is more to life than the luxuries I have once had. And with all these gone, not only have I lost my sense of pride in living, but also my pride in surviving.

I was worst off than an animal. At least, they strive to survive no matter what! And me, a human, with all smarts and hands to operate tools and hunt, coundn't even have the will to survive....

"What have i become ?", I sigh.....

Chapter 4 - Hope

A year has past since my near suicidal experience. I have learned how to make a fire, avoid the unpredicting weather of the sea, and also created tools for survival. It was a vast improvement. It was all in the name of survival. I had started to wandered the island to look for other source of water. I used coconut shells to store rain water. I used broken rocks as knives to cut, and collected branches from trees to make ropes to build a home.

It was a tough year. I haven't been speaking to anyone since. I was getting lonely and depressed, and at times started talking to myself. Do I have schizophernia ? I'm not sure, but it sures cut the bore out of me.

I knew that I was going to be on this island for a long long time, and I better prepare for the worst to come. I didn't want to die here, and had people I wanted to see. The people I love. The people I adore, and the people that I want to be with. I had to survive. No matter what. I built rescue signs, massive fires and etc. However, it has been a hard 1 year since I saw any plane nor ship. But I never gave up.....

Chapter 5 - Reminisence

At night, I tend to be weak in mind and heart. I start to wonder what my loved ones are doing, and why haven't they ask a search rescue for me. Have they thought that I was dead. Did they forget about me already? What happened to them?

I have long forgotten the touch of a woman.... I have long taste the bitterness of grounded coffee... I have long felt love from anyone. I'm all alone. Ever so alone. Alone that is scares me sometimes. So scared, that I wonder would I probably be the only person in this world.....

"Where is everyone? Where are you guys? Find me... please..."

Chapter 6 - The End

Decades have passed... I have long been forgotten. Here I lay in the sand of time, covered in dust and specks of sands. Here I lie, and never to move again. I sacrificed it all. To survive, I believed in my self. I believe and kept on believing. Although I know I'm going, my tracks would be left embedded in the sand. Never to forget, never would be forgotten.

I have moved on and learn. Accepting the fact that I would never be found, and ever to be forgotten....

Chapter 7 - Conclusion

As I was slowing drifting to unconsciousness, I kept believing. Never to give up. Not till the very last second of a heart beat. As I was to move on, a spark of light suddenly shun upon the high blue sky. It was so bright, that it felt like a thousand sun. It was blinding .....I couldn't see.... what has happened.....

As I start to awake, a blurry picture of a person resembling my love appeared. I could hear her voice. I could smell her odour. It was coming clear....it was her. It was my love.... where was I? What happened ?

"My Love......(i smiled), you found me...."

A week later I was told that I was in a comma for years. I was involved in an accident and was considered as good as dead. But my love, never gave up on me, and kept me going. She believed in me. She never left me. She had always known I would never give up. She waited.......

It was the first time in my life, that I feel loved. I cherish the moment and will never forget what I been through. I felt happy that I had never give up. Never giving up my life. Never giving up believing in my loved one. I made it through, and it was through this believe that brought me here today.

So don't give up and continue to survive. The path of survival is nothing more than an imaginative journey which tries to bring you down. Continue on this journey, and it will make you stronger. Its hard physically, emotionally and mentally. But at the end, you will find true happiness in a realised end.

The Pursuit of Happiness

In an ideal world, every child would have a happy childhood; a memorable teenage life; an excellent job; a perfect counter-part; forever lasting parents and ultimately no worries in life.

In reality, a person's life is never perfect. People who are born in this world, bears a certain responsibility to the world. It is their fate, and their destiny, to uphold such responsibility to not only the society, but to themselves.

Now close your eyes and ponder..... who are you responsible to?
Just yourself or another?

In our early ages of life, we tend to think of ourselves more often than we do. It is unavoidable as there is nothing to protect nor care for in our life except ourselves then. It is when we grow older do we start to realize that there are more to life than our little world of ours. We can't neglect the fact that there are people who we need to care for and people who awaits our support. We as individuals have to play our part and responsibility in trying to provide those without expecting anything back. This is a heavy responsibility. And at times, it defeats us in many circumstances. However, it is because of a certain sense of responsibility that we overlook at those times of sadness and overcome it with a heart of pride and joy.

As a person myself, I too have my own little requirements in life. Things that I can accept and things I cannot. However, not everyone is similar to us. Others have their own little perspective in life. Why can't we be open about one another requirements and live with compromise. All I can do sometimes is be patient. I have a responsibility not only for one life, but a number. I never complain when things get rough. I never retreat nor change my principle. We as a person only can give so much. Its not selfish, its not injustice, its the way it is. I have a responsibility. I dont have a perfect family, I dont have a wealthy one either. All I have is a will to uphold my responsibility in order to keep everyone happy. At times, I do breakdown. I can't uphold this stance forever. For I am still a man who isn't perfect to the eyes of other people or god himself. All I ask from god in every prayer is to give me strength... strength to continue on my journey of joy, pain, love and responsibility, for I am responsible for myself but also to others. I never complain the weight of my burden, nor do I see it as a burden. Its not that I'm being force to do it, its more as I want to.... and the reason why is because.....

of my responsibility of love to the pursuit of happiness in everyone's lives.

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A message from Life of A Normal Guy ~ To those responsible for another, I know its hard, but hanging in there, and let the fruits bear
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The Birth of Life

Ever wondered what life is all about ?

I would always ponder to myself, and ask the question, " Why are we here ? For what purpose?"...
I could never figure it out. But recently I realize a truth about life and I start to see what's life's all about.

Life, a very fragile thing. Easily diminished, easily reborn, but can never be restored. If one realizes, we only do have only one life to live. In this life we go through stages of youth, and age, and experience that teaches us what life is really about. Every journey that we set in life, has an outcome of results. Be it ended with tears of sadness or smiles of happiness, one can expect to go through a series of chapters in their life that they cannot miss. Its like watching a movie really, but us as the main actors projected in life.

Today is my very special someone's birth day. And as I go through the day, I kept thinking how meaningful this day is to me. Without this historical day, my special someone will never had been born, and will never had I met this special person in my life. She changed my life drastically and guide me to be a better person. She pours a certain affection of love, that sooths my heart, and a certain beauty and cuteness that sips into my love. She is my wife.

When I was in my teenage years, I always thought, there is no difference on whether a person lived or died as it had nothing to do with me. But soon I realize, the presence of a single person can change the world. The presence of a single parent can make a difference to a child, the presence of siblings will help nurture one's personality and solitude view, the presence of president could have lead a country to disaster or peace, and ultimately, the presence of a very special someone in life, can make our lives more meaningful and desirable. That is how precious a person's life is. One life can make a difference, may it be significant for all or some, it still would make a difference to the life of others.

Life is not only to be lead in solitude. A young life will be showered by the love of one's parents, a teenage life will be accompanied by the love of their friends, a couple life will be sharing a love between one another, a parents life will then shower their love to their children and the aging life will be gratifying repaid in love by their children. That is the cycle of life. And that's what life is really about. Its all about experiencing, and growing to learn to be a person in this world. Understand what one's presence could mean for another. If there were no one around, there wouldn't be children to lead the future. If there were no life on earth, it would make no difference to other dead planets around us.

So our lives do make a different. And as individuals of these world, lets us make a difference around us. Let us learn the good and bad, and help those around us. Coz it is the proof of our existence. It is our legacy to leave a name, a good will, a treasured memory to another to so that our lives do a have a meaning in them. Learn from the mistakes and act to benefit not only oneself, but also to others.

Life is beautiful, whether it goes through times of tears and sadness or joy and laughter. Enjoy life as it is, and cherish it every moment through time :)

Peace !

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The Road I Have Traveled

© By Regina J. Broker

The road I have Traveled.
Bridges I have crossed.
I've gone the extra mile,
I've come to many stops.
I had a few road blocks,
toward what I thought,
could be the end.
But had to be brought back
a mile or two again.
So when closure comes,
I do know what it will mean.
I'll finally have peace of mind,
I'll be able to feel,think, and breathe
I probably won't believe it.
I'll think it is all a dream.
And although the journey will have ended.
I'll never forget What I've learned along the way,
or how I learned to take it day by day.

~ A message from Life of a Normal Guy to those who cherish life ~

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Prayer

One should ask oneself. How often does one pray?
Better still, what does one pray for ?

Throughout all life, people only pray for the things they want. The heed to achieve something in life, yet it seems impossible as an individual that they turn their heads to the one cosmic believe in life, God.

How does one see prayer ? Does a prayer ever get heard by god? Does every prayer get answered in life? One mystery that will never be solved.

Recently I viewed a movie that really touched the meaning of meaningfulness. In that show, the question was asked, " How does God answer a prayer?". I learnt something about a prayer from that movie. The ultimate truth is that God doesn't let any prayer go unanswered. Its just so that it comes in a form that we don't recognize. When a prayer seem to be unanswered, look back and look again. God never answer prayer's of miracles, but rather a more realistic prayer in life. God only helps those who helps themselves. Thus, how does a prayer help, one my ponder...

The truth is, God hears every prayer and gives an opportunity for every one of us to pick up that opportunity. He does not realise a dream through miracles but rather produce a chance, an opportunity for people like us to be able to pursue our dreams and desire. Nothing is impossible, and everything is possible, if you put your heart into it.

I realise that this is true as all my years of living and chasing a dream, nothing seems to come directly to us. It has to be done in some form of hardwork, and given opportunity for something to happen. And that's what a prayer does. When we pray, it does not mean that god will give us that something, but rather, he opens up a window of opportunity to us to try and achieve it. Thus the real meaning of a prayer.

By far, " God only help those who help themselves". Nothing in life comes by chance. All opportunities are given, and how we see those opportunities depends really on how we work towards it. Some might think how miserable one's life can be, or always dread to be better off but one could have never took any initiative to change how things were and expect god to drop a bomb shell in their life. It just doesn't work that way. Controversial for some, but realistic for all.

If you have a prayer or desire, don't be afraid to go after it. A simple prayer from the heart is what you need to start achieving your dream. A journey of a thousand miles starts with the first step. Thus start by praying, and work hard to achieve what you desire. Coz there is nothing more in life to be happy about then being able to go towards something we are looking for in life. May it be a dream or a vision, continue to pray, and the doors of opportunity will come to you :)


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~ God answers all prayer through the doors of opportunities that are abundance in this world ~

A message from Life of A Normal Guy to people out there. Keep up your dreams and never give up!

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Words of Sadness ~ Good Bye

~Good bye~
Two simple words that trigger tears of unwilling departure.
Simple, yet powerful, its true meaning has always been depressing for a lot of people throughout centuries. In Japanese, words of goodbye is known to be forever. The word "sayonara" has been seen as an eternal departure and an ever lasting good bye that will never end. Ever would one thought why should we say those words as we depart.

I never like the word good bye. It is too depressing and hurtful at times. However, words of good byes are unavoidable. At some point of our lives, we would have to say these words of departure. Not only to a friend, but also to a loved one. Its a cycle in life. We meet and we say good bye. It might not be now, but it maybe soon in the future. Death is the most depressing good bye of them all. And no one can avoid it.

Hence why should we avoid it. It is something we go through in life. It is something one have to speak out when they need to. If you compared to death, regular good byes are just a temporary departure. Don't be despair. Rather than saying good bye, change the words to words of positive effect. "See you later" or "Catch you around" has a different meaning and effect on a person. Those casual sentences gives confidence to one that they will be seeing each other again and not seperated for life. Understand the meaning of good bye and don't be sadden by it, coz if you can't say it now, you might miss the chance saying it in the future.

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"Remember those who left us,
and never forget what they had done;
for we will never know;
shall our path cross and become one, "

A message from Life of A Normal Guy to everyone who needs to say their good-byes

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