Dawn of a new era

Ahh... its been a year since my last blog. Again, every time I write, it seems like I'm travelling in a time machine, leaping through months and years from one post to another. Its good to reflect back on what had happen over the past year (in my case, my last blog).

Firstly, I'm a dad now. My new born baby boy is now 7 months old. It really didn't seem like a long time ago when I shed tears of happiness in seeing my new born baby boy come into this world. His first cries. His first smile. His first night at home. All seems like just yesterday. Yet, he today on the 11/08/2012 is officially 7 months old. How time flies.

Times changed since I last written. No more were the good economic times where people were allowed to spend more than they can. No more were the times where a government job is secure. A lot of change in the economy has cause me and my profound colleges at work to face another worry. A worry of being selected for redundancy.

Again I say, I do not know what the future holds for us all. But looking back, it seemed that everyone's path has been paved right from the beginning go. Have I made the right choice? A question that everyone normally ask themselves. Well, to be honest, there is no right or wrong. Rather what path have you chosen to reach your end point. I see life like a journey. You could have chosen any path, and you would have reached   your destiny regardless. Our life's fated. Our end is written. One end that will never go away is death itself.

We can never avoid death. No matter how hard we try, or what path we choose. Someday, death will be upon us. Same goes in terms of what is there for us tomorrow. Will I still have job tomorrow ? One of my colleagues ask. I can't answer it. All I can say, we should be thankful that we are better off than many others who is struggling and have probably lost their jobs as well in the current economic climate. All these happen because of someone's political agenda. We are no more than tiny pawns to them huh....

But, is it really a bad thing that we lose our jobs? Become redundant? Or is it an opportunity for us to explore what is out there, and potentially bring the best of us. A phrase I bumped into today when I was doing some reading,

"Within every diversity is the seed of an equal or greater opportunity"

When I read this, it made me realise that what is about to come is not really for the bad or worse. It might be for the good and also a turning point for some in their careers. Some will be successful, some will be worst off. But how it pans and turns out, really depends on how your perspective to life. 

I'm not saying I'm a saint who is worry free and is more than capable in facing these harsh reality of life. However, we all do need to face it. And since its upon us, we may as well face it with a strong will. Never to give up, and strive to the very last end. Have confidence and move forward. People are consumed by fear. Fear of losing one's income. Fear of losing one's house. Fear of losing.... everything....do note however, we came into this world with nothing, and we will be going without nothing. All we can do is stay positive, pray, and hope for the fact that the bullet does not hit between the eyes, and rather pierces just through the thighs :).

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A message from Life of a Normal Guy:

Anything that doesn't kill you, makes you even stronger. If it does, there's always next time.

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Hope

Its that time again where I once again, open this webpage and think, my, how long has it been. Since the first wordings I wrote in early Jan, the conflict at work is still not resolved. It is only growing worst with the guns pointing at me more. However, its only a week away before all these becomes history. However, this one week is crucial as it will spark animosity and unhappiness in all. I really don't understand how things turned to the worst. I guess disappointing acts keep repeating itself, causing one to turn. I'm really tired of the situation, and still have to face this day by day.

Nevertheless, hope is just around the corner. The sounds of little tethering feet will soon arrive and the burden of "the" work situation will soon disappear. I'm looking forward to it :D. My baby boy will come, and as per the Chinese believe, an array of good fortunes will come my way. I feel overwhelmed. My first born. My son. I will teach him the ways. Ways of the truth in this world. Ways of being a good person. Not as what his father has witness in this world. I want him to be happy. I want him to be realistic. I want him to know, his parents love him very much, and that in this world, there are times where there will not be a rainbow of smiles greeting him after a storm. I want him to be strong and brave. I want him strive in this world, and touch those with his presence in the future. He will be my legacy before I perish, and he will be my son.

I hope that in the future when he's old enough to discover his old man's blog, that he give a thought that his old man has thought about him every second, even before his even born. Son, if your reading this, remember that dad will always be there for you and we (your mom and I) love you very much. Be a good person. Nothing is more important than having a heart of gold. The world may treat you differently, but as long you know that deep inside you have done good, you have made us proud.

You currently are in your mom's womb, and have been very strong. I can sense that, and I believe you will be a strong person in this world in the future. Follow your heart in what's right and condone the bad. Remember, we reap what we sew. For now, mom and dad will be waiting to see your smiles and protect you as you grow. So my son....

加油......生活好....爸妈在等你。

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Message from Life of a Normal Guy：

Be brave little one and live life to the fullest~

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New Horizon ~ New Year

The Dawn of a New Year ~ 2011

Once again another year has past. Can't believe that it has been a year ago since I remember 2010 just arrived. When I was younger, I always looked forward to years passing as quick as possible as I wanted to get out of school. I didn't really realise nor appreciated the great times I had at school and how life now is passing by so quickly that I sometimes am hesitant to look forward to another year.

But life moves on. We work. We toil and we hope that maybe that one lucky lottery ticket would strike us a lifetime. Work life can be complicated. At times its not really the type of work, but rather the influence of people around you. It is hard to envisage a work environment without any social conflict in interest. Everyone has to watch their back and their interest. Who watches ours?

I never liked conflict, but seem to face them on a daily basis sometimes. It is the nature of my work I would have thought. Sometimes I am really sick of stuff, and really hope that I never had any financial issues to worry about. But life is like that, we all work hard, and toil long hours in the day, just to put food on the table and a roof over our heads and our families. Its a sad life at times. But what rights do I have to complain ? I am getting paid fairly for the work I'm doing. Compared to other more unlucky countries, my job life may be something to die for. I guess its the mentality that its always greener on the other side.

I am uncertain of the future or what to expect. All I can do is continue to ride this journey call life, and experience the pain, joy and indifference that life has to offer. I hope that the future me reading this one day, would look back and reminiscent the good ole' days before.

To the future me, well done to have survived so far and I hope that you are living in an even better life to what I experience today :)

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A message from Life of a Normal Guy:

Remember your past, learn from your mistakes, and look forward to the future.

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Destiny

What is our destiny ?

Are we humans destined for greater things ?

Or are we just destined to live and die ?

I was watching a documentary regarding the galaxy and the outer solar system. It is amazing what is out there. The world we live in is nothing in comparison to what is out there. The knowledge we humans possess; logic and science can never explain the wonderful phenomenons that happens out of this little microscopic world of ours.

Super novas, Mega novas, and ultra novas, where a beam of light would just exist out of no where in space, creating light that is unexplainable. With all of our understandings of the world, one can never explain what causes all these. In the greater measures of things, we are only a speck of micro-organism as compared to the vast galaxy out there. The documentary is unbelievable. It is something that made me realize that life is boundless. So many possibilities, so many knowledge. Do we really understand what we are here for ?

We make decisions everyday. We feel different emotions. We live and we die. Are we just bounded by these ?or are we destined to live and die ?

Watching that documentary, I realize now that there are more beautiful and meaningful things in life than just ours. It is the nature of life. The beauty of life itself. I often feel thankful to be living, experiencing and learning about all these magnificent phenomenons. Life is short. A mere 100 years plus is nothing to compared to the amount of light years distant it is to the end of the galaxy. We are only here a short time to experience love, sadness, anger, happiness, and ultimately, peace. We should grasp hold of these experience, to so when we have our last breaths of life, we turn back the memories and say, " I will always remember.", "I will never forget the day I fell in love.", " I will always remember my parents sweat and tears.", and "I never regretted living life.".

Since young, I always looked upon the stars above, and thought what was beyond these sheets of skies. Is it just a vast of empty spaces or is there where god lies ? Now thinking about it, god does exist. He exist within us, beyond us, around us. He is everything that we experience visually, autistic-ally, emotionally, and mentally. We have to appreciate the creation of his, and learn to admire the beauty that he created. Life is one of them, so therefore don't forgo it. Learn from it, understand it,... live it.

The moment I one day take my last breath, I believe god will take me to the end of the universe. To experience the beauty at the end of the galaxy. Fulfilling my life experience with a simple beauty of phenomenon light that is undiscovered by mankind. I will see it one day. And till that day, I will appreciate every moment of life. Preparing for it.

I love life. Bad or good. I love the life that is given to me. I enjoy it. I dread it. But ultimately I love it. Time passes, we should waste no time living it. Live life, enjoy and die. No regrets and embrace our destiny. Good or bad, it is we who makes it.

Life is interestingly enough that, although we are destined to come to an end one day, we can change our fates to how we go through it. Remember, we can lead life happily or we can lead a dreadful life, ultimately we will come to pass of our lives. So why not live happily and leave no regrets. Wouldn't that be the perfect ending ?

Wouldn't it ?

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A message from Life of a Normal Guy:

Live life with no regrets. Appreciate it. Love it. Experience it.

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Time Machine

Everyday at work, we argue the fact that time travel was possible, and we can only go beyond the future but not dwell back to the past. Whether this is a proven theory or not, remains a mystery until someone discovers the existence of a flux capacitor.

My work involved a lot in predicting the future. Planning the best outcome. Out wittingly know everything that is going to happen in a particular area and plan for contingencies which might or might not happen. In fact, I've been thrown in such environment that I could actually see the future by predicting what would happen next based on historical data and events. Its like going to the future, but not being there. One can see where the future lies in my shoes, but yet could not experience it. This is due to existence of another dimension. The Fourth Dimension - where one can see through time, but not be able to experience through time.

There has been a lot of flaws that goes around at work. A lot of daily requirements. A lot of mission impossible tasks. However, how can one complete all in just a short duration of finite time. Especially when a lot of guessing works comes into play. Well, the one thing that keeps me sane for the time being, is to know that tomorrow is another day. We struggle hard and long in our working days, trying to earn a living, trying to achieve a sense fulfillment, and learning the ways of the society.

I am a bit disappointed at how things go at times. But opportunity comes during turmoil. I believe each and every one that our time will come. It is just a matter of waiting for that one chance, or opportunity to arrive. So we have to hang on. Being a Gen Y, I still do believe that we need to stand up for what we believe, but having a Gen X mentality, there are boundaries of what we can or can not do. One day everyone will have a chance to shine. And that one day will come. (Year 2009).......



(Year 2010)........
Its been a year since my written the above 4 paragraphs, and till today I still believe in what was written a year before. Nothing change in my life so far. However, things are getting harder and harder to cope as we chug along this path call life. Every morning, I wake up in dreadfulness, but scream in excitement for tomorrow to come. We learn, we grow, we forgive, we forget, we cherish, we plan, we disappoint, we curse, but at the end, we find. We find who we are, deep within our souls. We search, for what we call, the meaning of life. Have everyone reflect on what they have done in these years ? Were we a different person a year before ? Were we wrong of others ? Or were we just gullible to think that life is always sewn to perfection that we get disappointed more and more as we chug a long :).

Since writing this post in 2009 and ending it in 2010, I realise that life is never the way we always want it to be. However, the life we chosen can still have something to celebrate for. Do we all ask too much at times ? Maybe. Or are we too blind to see the fruits of life that we have beared within the path that we have chosen ?

I'm keen to see what type of learning's and person I would be in the year to come. What will have changed? Will it be good or bad ? Or would it be another hurdle to go through in some other life experiences. It yet to be seen. Till then....(stay tuned)

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A message from Life of A Normal Guy:
Await to experience the future and predict not our destined path, for time will reveal all of who we really are.

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A Journey till The End

When a person starts a journey, a person is yet to end it. Every step, every decision of path. All would contribute to one's journey in life.

An inspiring music allowed me to see through the blue sky today. The song is called "Pure Feeling".
It was an interesting song. Recently I had a lot in my mind. I felt as though I was not in peace. I wasn't relax. I was stressed, frustrated and busy. I never liked these feeling. All I wanted was to be happy and enjoy life. However, today, whilst I was walking out to work, I listened to this song. And I "listened". I looked up to the blue heaven sky, and I thought to myself,

"How many more steps will I reach my journey. Is life just a repetition of an everyday occurance?"

As I was walking up the sloppy hill to my destination, it suddenly struck me....
We are walking up a hill in life, looking at the heaven's and hoping to reach. Similar to life, where we struggle to pursuit an eternal feeling called happiness. Ironically, I felt as I had wings to soar above the heavens as I climbed the hill but came to realize that it was nothing more than a mere illusion in life. The heaven's was in front of us, yet we imagine chasing something that was not reachable. In a matter of fact, it is not our journey to reach the heavens, but rather to experience the beauty of heaven from afar.

As I realize this and once again looked up the majestic blue skies, I see that I didn't need to chase after heaven, heaven was presented right in front of me. The music to my ears amplified that feeling. I felt free from the world. Relax. Unbounded by the law of the universe. I was in heaven.

Although it was only a brief 5 minutes experience. I realize that similarly to heaven, happiness is always in front of us. We don't really need to chase it, it is just there, ready to be experience at any time or day. It made me realize, in order to find happiness, one must first realize that happiness is actually in us. We just got to realize it and not hazed by the fact that happiness comes with a price or return from something else.

I really would like to see the heaven's again one day. Although it was just a blue sky, what I really saw was........

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A message from Life of A Normal Guy: Happiness is in front of us, appreciate and experience it
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Dear God

Dear God,

Saturday, 14th June 2008.

My wife is unhappy today. She lost not only to a badminton game, but also to herself. I feel sad in a way not because we lost a game, but rather because of her losing her confidence. I can honestly say that she plays well. But I really hope that she be patient enough and strive to continue working hard at to accept that losing is the first step to success. I know god that deep inside she is really good, just sometimes have a temper... but please give her the strength to slowly change rather than giving up. I will support her. I will comfort her. But I also want to give her confidence. Confidence not only in others but also in herself. Believing that she can do it. I hope the words of others does not affect her, for words of mouth come and go, and sometimes does not mean anything.

So please give her strength

From the prayers of the man who love her