Do you Believe ?

What do you believe ?
Do you believe in miracles ? Do you believe in God ? Do you believe in the ones you love ?
When you are lost, or in need, who do you beleive in ?
A lot of ppl just like me, have a tendency to give up "believes" in a lot of things. Reality has really shown us its true colour of survival and the ugliness in life. Not everything in life is as pretty as it may seem. Everything is just a beautiful cover of what is really much uglier behind those covers. But what can we do about it ? We can't, we only have to continue living in this society of parade.
In younger days, a lot of us were believers and also dreamers. But as one by one grows up, the innocence of a person is no more, and they will start to lose their believe. As time goes by, we get dissapointed even more by those who we believe and trust.

For me, I have given up in believing in lots of things. As a child, I came to believe in lots of stuff. I believed in the magic of miracles. I believe in the goodness in people. I believe in the purity of love. I believe in the beauty of the world. But, reality can sometimes be devastating to a child. And now, as I grow up, I start to lose believe in lots of things. But one thing I shall never lose believe in, is believing in myself. I still believe the world is still a beautiful place, as in I believe myself it is. And it is. I still believe that love can be pure, and as I believe in it myself, I still believe it. I believe there is still goodness in people, as in I believe it in myself.

Confused ? Well, lets put it this way, externally, I don't believe in lots of things, but believing in myself is something I have faith in. And invested in me, i believe in myself. Myself who believe dreams can come true. Myself who believes everything is possible, and myself who believes the boundless possibilities of everything. Thus, I believe in myself.

There were times, i really loss faith and believe in myself. But I came through. Yesterday, I watched a movie called the Polar Express. I was really touched in its meaningful story. Believing is an important part in life. Believing in something is a crucial thing. It is the foundation of everything. And by believing in something, you would have everything you need. Believe in what you feel inside, and your dreams will give you the wings to fly. It doesn't matter whether you believe in God. It doesn't matter if you believe in life. It doesn't matter if you believe in someone you love. Most importantly believe in what you yourself really believe in. And thus you will see a much beautiful world then expected.

Believe, my friends. Its something you can do anytime, anywhere. Dont lose your believe in the those you love. Don't lose your believe in God. And never ever lose believe in yourself. Move forward, and just believe ~




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A message from Life of A Normal Guy to all those believer out there. Continue to beleive, and your dreams will grant you wings.
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I'm Back Online

It was a trecharous thing. It came unexpectedly. It was a leech. A menace. It made me waste my day doing nothing. It was a Bug in the IE explorer !
For so long, I haven't have this problem, but when it hit me, I didn't even know it. What the hell was I thinking.

It was on that cold night. That I got a word around the net street. A stalker and leechers was around. It cnever struck me, that I was leeched !!. God How much time I have wasted. How much precious information I have loss. It was disastrous. And the worse thing was I didn't know about it before. I blamed others for this trecherous leech, but it was I who attracted it. And on this cold night, I have fought 2 hard hours thinking. Thinking how to outrun this leech menace which was on my tail. It was hard, it was threatening, and most of all a waste of my time. Alas after hours of exploring all possibilities and probabilities, alas i found the solution to it. The key registry. It was a hard battle, but I had won the struggle between me and the leech. Damn the IE leech. Thank God, i was safe from it.

Now in this cold and silent night. As I defeated the leecher, I sat in front of my computer. Thinking. Having a sip of hot cocoa drink, I wonder.... I stood up, walked to the balcony, and sigh in relief and told myself. It was a tought fight. But I got through ~ Lame as it may be, but still it was a success from within.

As I stood under the silent night, i looked up in the sky, and said, "Well, that's a day's work. Time for me to go to bed.". As I stepped into the room, i feel as though the leecher is still out there. Ready and waiting for his next victim. I can only pray that the next victim wil be alright.
May God Bless Him ~



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A message from Life of A Normal Guy, may those infected victims be alright and find
peace in the world wide web. Amen ~
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The Stars

Another boring day from life of a normal guy.
I looked up the stars and always wondered how big the universe can be, its a miracle that God created such a large roof on top of us. Never ever I have doubts that there might be more living creatures out there. I remember in the past there found prove of existance of life on planet Pluto. Some kind of living creature which could stand the temperature under sub-zero. Amazing aint it. Whether it is true or not, I believe there is.

The Universe, so big, that in the past, people usually represent it as the heavens for the Gods. Today even astronomy has taken place to predict the lives of people just by looking the positioning of the stars. I believe it can.

Scientist even found out a new energy matter which compounded space. It was refered to as the dark energy. It is known as the dark matter that surrounds the universe as its particle, which was in opposite direction of the gravity energy force. I believe it is true.

So many possibilities.

When I was young, I used to pray up to the Gods up in the sky. The night skies and sparkling bright stars were the focus of my prayer. Everyday I looked up and told myself, I will prevail one day. And alas, that day has come. I still beleive in the Gods up in the stars, and still wish under the same stars everyday and time. Coz I believe in them.

Coz the only thing I can do is believe. To have faith in something is a very powerful thing. Same goes for the story of "Pinnochio". Where a wodden boys dream finally come true. We too can have our dreams come true. All you need to do is beleive. Believe in the stars, believe in the Gods you cherish most and your most desired dreams will come true.

So on a starry night, look up, close your eyes, and pray.....

" Star light, star bright, your're the first stars tonight. I wish I may I wish I might I wish that I may wish tonight............................."



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A dedication from A Life of A Normal Guy, to the gods who watches over us from
afar. ~ Believe in them we shall ~
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Great Ocean Road 

童话故事里(tong hua gu shi li) - Inside a Fairy Tale

In a fairy tale, there is always a story to be told. A story so true, yet so mythical. Nevertheless, the story always ends with a happy ending. Have you ever asked yourself, maybe the story can be true ?

In life, people always disregard a fairy tales to be unreal, especially in cases of happy endings. You often hear people say, "Well, that only works in the fairy tale, in reality....."

Thus I ask the question, how would one know how reality has already written for another ? Fairy tales and stories are written by authors. And as in our lives, we write our "tales" in another way. Some people believe that our lives has been written by someone upthere. Some don't even believe that there is even someone upthere. But, remember this, life is just like a book with blank pages, we write those tales ourselves. Nevertheless, how we write them, will show others how we live our life ? Happily ? or just plain Disastrous depending on how you write the "tale". Here, the expression in the "tale" depends on how you perceive your life. Happiness is an abstract thing extracted from our hearts. It cannot just be there for you, you have to create it. Created to bring happiness not only to you, but to everyone around you.

And when you create your own tale of happiness, one day shall you look back, and read the tale again to your children and grandchildren. And smile. Thinking that, what you have gone through can you now share your experience to the ones you love most. That will be the most beautiful fairy tale ever written in ones life. So make the best out of it. Don't give up because you think that life has control over you, don't give because you think god is trying to be unfair to you, don't give up because you think everythings is predestined. We need to strive for what its worth. There is no easy way out. If the tough gets going, smile and conquer it. No matter what the outcome is, you will find yourself in a state of fulfillment and happiness.



Thus, i invite everyone to listen to the song as titled above. It is a love song nevertheless, but it is very meaningful, at least to me. The last sentence is something meaningful that I think everyone should learn from it. It goes.....

"......一起写我们的结局" ( Together we write our ending)


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Another blog from The Life of A Normal Guy to everyone out there. May God
Bless you all, and find happiness from within.

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God Pls Help 

Dr? or Engineer ?

It always occurs to be why should one be a Dr ? I never thought of getting such a high post nor being called that. But on the other hand, with a chance of being a Dr, why become a worker ? Isn't it confusing ? Why be a Dr ? Why not "be" a Dr, rather than a worker. Ok, stop with the mind twisting. I guess decisions are hard to make sometimes. I'm really in a dilemma. I really can't choose between them. I can't imagine myself to be called Dr.Heng, yet I cannot visualize myself to be working forever under an engineering position for the rest of my life. Where is it going wrong ? Choices are there, but I cannot make the decisions. Why why why ? This is what my supervisor told me in choice and regards to become a doctorate:

Supervisor: Oh, come in Benson. Sorry, I've been busy these few weeks recently, please come in
Me : Hi sir, am I bothering you ?

Supervisor: Oh not at all, please please do come in, have a seat and lets talk.

Me : Sir we need to talk about the offer u are giving to me. Tell me what is the prospects of obtaining a doctorate degree in engineering. ? How long is the project duration ? And what is the project all about ?

Supervisor: Well Benson, first things first. I choose you not because of your results but more to I my confidence and believe that you can. Your 3 months performance in the Uni as a Research Assistant has shown tremendous results, and I believe with your abilities you can complete this project with success. I cannot guarantee you a completion of the Phd project in two years, but I can assure you, you are capable of it. The project is practically a power control system based on non-linearities which you can know more on your research. It may seem very complex at first, but it is very simple actually. With your analytical skills, you are just right for the job.

Me : Seriously, sir. You really think I can do it?

Supervisor: Don't worry Benson. Take the offer. It is one of the largest schoalrship that the Uni can ever offer to someone. I'm sure you'll do fine. The project is incooperated with another 2 more Phd students based in NTU, Singapore. Who knows, you might be able to fly to Singapore and also have a vacation back to Malaysia, all under the expenses of the University. Your a brilliant guy Benson, and if you can complete in 2 years, I'm pretty sure, you are able to go to MIT in the USA. Its a good opportunity since you are paid highly to study it.

Me : Well, sir. You are right, but still is it possible to extend the due date to April, I need some time to think about it carefully. I know it is a bit much to ask, but I really hope you can give me that time.

Supervisor: Not a problem Benson ! I already extended it myself. I know your difficulties, but I hope to hear from you the good news !

Me : Thanks sir for your support, I will get back to you ASAP. See you around !

Supervisor: Cheers mate !

Decisions decisions decisions. Should I take the offer ? Or should I shun it and obtain working experience ? What do you think ? Stupid question for all of you brilliant ppl out there. Voice out your opinions. Tell me !!! I'm already lost.


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A single message from the Life of a Normal Guy to all the angels and saviours out there.
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